Confession about gyaru

Hi,I just feel like updating my blog today.

I got a strange feeling about me trying gyaru style.

I feel like I don't belong here somehow.

There's no excuse on the face structure coz I'm Asain.

Well, being an Asian,I should have done better than this.

You can see those perfect non-Japanese Asian gyaru everywhere but that's not me.

I had to admit that if I were someone else,I'd have high expectation when an Asian said she'd do gyaru style.

Actually,I never feel like being gyaru.

It's just me cosplaying gyaru...something like that.

There are few reason why I'm not an actual gyaru.

1.I don't have my nail painted or decorated.

2.I rarely use my own hair when I take picture.Most of them are wigs

3.I don't go to gyaru meetups nor belong to any gyarusa.

4.I don't live a gyaru life,it's more like a couch potato.

5.I'm not slim,I'm overweight

Now you can oppose to that whatever you want,it's just my lame excuses anyway.

I know that it doesn't apply to most ppl.

I don't know if I'm being too strict with myself.

I don't even know how I feel about myself.

I do whatever I feel like.

I quit when I quit .

It's not even about other ppl who told me I don't look gyaru enough.

I wouldn't give a damn if it was in that case.

It's all about me.

*sigh*

I feel like an emo kid now.

I kidda hate the fact that I don't belong to any category.

But hey,it's me and it's what I feel like doing. 

I'm not saying I'm gonna quit trying gyaru tho.

I love all the cute clothes and accessories.

My wardrobe is full of them and I'm not gonna sell any of it.

I just got the feeling that I will "forever trying to be gyaru" but never become an actual one.

And next,I'm going to show you gyaru pic I did today :D

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Oh,how ironic posting your so-called gyaru pic after you wrote a long post complaining about it,right?

I bet I got you there.

At least I should try saying "this is my attempt on gyaru today".

But it doesn't give the impact enough so I wrote what I wrote.

I've noticed that I didn't post much about how I feel and the way I think here.

I used to wrote a lot of that kind of post when I used Exteen.

But maybe that was because I was young and naive.

If I were to hashtag myself it would be #sarcasm #trolling #antisocial #KY #swearword #moreswearword

Of course,I'm trying to be kind and nice here coz that the way they do here.

I'm not sure how nice I am if I were to measure it myself,maybe only 30% of what's shown.

Alright,I might have commented something like "Oh wow,you're so cuteeeee!!"

But I might be like "yeah,cute enough to saying I'm not lying when I said you're cute".

Basically,I just avoid praising someone if I don't think they look good.

So don't worry if you get that kind of comment.

Last but not least,I didn't say I look ugly in gyaru,did I?

I lost count of the time I admiring my 'naked face'.

So,it's normal if you think the dolled-up one is pretty.

(does that make you hate me now that I sound like an arrogant bitch?)

But if that's the way they do then go on and say

"Oh no,you are so cute,you're doing good at gyaruuuuu"

Trust me,I know what it's like when you read a blog with pic and don't know what to comment.

That might be a reason why I put up a pic here without reading the atmosphere.

Of course,I don't think this post would change anything I do.

Just sayin' :P

Are there any other negative thing about myself you wanna say but I haven't stated it?

If you got one,let me know.

Bye for now.

P.S.geez,now I don't know where my blog is heading but f**k that,I write what I want.
P.S.2 by saying 'naked face' I mean the annoying upset face I always make but maybe you don't know.

Recent addiction+Agejo attempt

First of all I'd like to thank you for the feedback on my previous post.

It's always good to know that there's someone waiting to read what I'm going to write.

Well,actually I've resigned from my last job for a while now.

I found that it was too tiring to travel a lot and work on Saturday ;w;

So basically,I'm a freeloader now XD

I'm searching for the right job tho coz I don't wanna jump a every job offered to me and end up resigning too soon again.

Since I have a lot of free time to waste,I joined Stream gaming community.

But yeah,even I did so there's not many game of my type there.

Nowadays,I mostly see action games that involved with virus or zombies games while my fav type of game being RPG and simulation.

I did find an interesting game on Stream that worth the money tho.

It's an indie game called "Don't Starve"

(Photo from Stream)

In the beginning of the game you wake up and there's a man tells you that you should find something to eat before it gets dark.You must find resources like flint or stick to craft basic tool such as axe,pickaxe as well as finding something to eat.Carrots and berries are the easiest stuffs to eat in your early day but they can also be cooked if you have all the required stuff.When the night comes,you have to built a campfire or something that keeps the screen visible or else a grue will hunt you.The more day you survive,the more experience you get.Seems like it's on sale now when I'm writing this,too so if you're interested,pls check it out.

That's all about it,I didn't mean to write a game review or anything tho.

I can't deny that I've been so into games lately,I love playing games since I was young anyway.

The first thing I do every morning is go checking on Pewdiepie channel for new video XD

I've just subscribed him when he has like 8M subcribers which I think it wasn't that long ago but he's already reached 10M now *o*

Even before that I've subscribed a lot of Thai gamers like LAWBREAKER,HEARTROCKER,XCROSZ tho.That's all because I'm too scared to play horror games myself and rather someone play them for me.

Anyway,yesterday I've try Agejo style.

I want to improve my hairstyling skill tho but I guess I'm no good for Sujimori hairstyle.

It's such a trouble to try everything with my own hair tho but it's ok.

I'd like to share the result with you.

 Coordinate.

Anyway,I'd appreciate your comment and tips :)

I'm looking forward to make it better anyhow.

I'm back

Finally,I decided to start writing blog again since I already got my new laptop :D

But well,yeah...it feels like I have to start it all over again.

I have to create my watermark image again since all of my files are gone :'(

And...I kidda sure that people on blogger has forgotten about me already.

Actually,since I stopped writing blog,I rarely get on blogger also.

That why I didn't go comment on anyone's blog.

But from now on I'll go comment on ppl's blog as I used to do.

Anyway,this is my most recent pic.

I tried on new clothes today and did on my makeup to match it.
Well,I kidda know that it's a fail.
Maybe I shouldn't have put on thick lower lash...
Anyway,at least I know what's not to do next time.

Btw,I feel like I'm getting a lot fatter now :'(
My dad always tell me to go to the fitness downstairs but I'm always too lazy to.
But now I think it's time to get serious with it!!
Wish me some luck.
Next time I'll find something more interesting to write about.
See you >_<

P.S.I put on hime gyaru tag coz at least I think I look gyaru enough.
So,if you think I don't,feel free to tell.